I quit, nothing is good enough, i can't love people the way they want to be loved, i can't treat people the way i wanted to be treated. So why try? Nothing is ever good enough for anyone, and i have 16 years worth of examples, even more now.
So i guess this is goodbye, wait, no, goodbyes are for people you care about and who care about you.
I guess im just sorry i failed you all, im disappointed in myself so don't worry, but im sorry that i couldn't live up to what everyone wanted me to be.
But im also proud of myself, the last time i had this idea, i got told "You haven't even made it past grade 10, everything will get better" and i remember telling you that it won't, and look, i was right. But hey, got to go to a party, pass grade 10, get my license, see 16. I don't really have anything else to look forward too.
So Mom,Dad,Andrew,Deidre,Ryan,Emma,Adam,Matt and Jas: Thankyou, im sorry, i love you, goodbye.
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