Tuesday, 26 March 2013

Jas..

Hey baby, so when I heard this song it really made me think of you.. Here are the lyrics <3

It's like technicolor in black and white
I felt like a boxer without a fight
A night in Vegas without all the lights

Before you
I could only see as deep as the skin
Before you
I never thought I could let anyone in
Before you
I was waiting for my life to begin

You are, you are the proof
that love is beautiful
You are, you are the truth
something unusual
You are, you are my fire
you're burning like the sun
You are, you are, you are
you are the only one

My walls are falling and my white flag is high
I've surrendered to the feeling inside
I look in to your eyes and rewind

Before you
I could only see as deep as the skin
Before you
I never thought I could let anyone in
Before you
I was waiting for my life to begin

You are, you are the proof
that love is beautiful
You are, you are the truth
something unusual
You are, you are my fire
you're burning like the sun
You are, you are, you are
you are the only one

Hand on my heart, feel how my heart beats (heart beats)
Hand on my heart, feel how my heart beats (heart beats)
(You are) Hand on my heart, feel how my heart beats (heart beats)
(You are) Hand on my heart, feel how my heart beats (heart beats)

You are, you are the proof
that love is beautiful
You are, you are the truth
something unusual
You are, you are my fire
you're burning like the sun
You are, you are, you are
you are the only one

You are, you are the proof
that love is beautiful
You are, you are the truth
something unusual
You are, you are my fire
you're burning like the sun
You are, you are, you are
you are the only one

Sunday, 24 March 2013

What she doesn't know..

All my life, I've asked for forgiveness from people, from people i did nothing too, but people who hurt me.

I asked for my siblings forgiveness, i said sorry, but for what? They left me in the rearview mirror. My sister texted me and mom saying she's homeless and has no money to come see us. She lives with her dad, she doesn't want to see us, but i still said sorry just so she'll come down.

I said sorry to him.. after HE took ADVANTAGE of ME. I said sorry for something i never did. Why? Just so people wouldnt leave me or be mad.

I said sorry to you, yes i hurted you. But saying you forgive me, and not saying sorry to me? Not cool, if that sounds selfish or mean then im sorry. But you hurt me too, i don't say anything about it, because im so used to being hurt. But for once in my life, id like to hear someone say there sorry and mean it because they fucked up too..

Its selfish..but its how i feel and im not hiding it anymore..

- Selfish Luke

Now.. Im having second thoughts...

Thursday, 21 March 2013

March , 21, 2013

I don't feel so great, i guess i did it to myself. Everything is taking the biggest toll on me, and its making me weak.

I don't like feeling weak, it makes me feel terrible which i do. I took everything out on her and its not fair, and i know she's going to break up with me. Im trying to ready for it, but i know i never will be.

I don't want to lose her, but i did this to myself , i pushed. I just hate myself because i know i hurt her, even after she blogged about how i never would. I fucked up there.

I wish nothing but the best for her, because i can't be the one to give her that

- Luke

LOOL, SHES SO BREAKING UP WITH ME

Don't Be A Hypocrite

Saturday, 16 March 2013

Mirrors

So I've been listening to a song called "Mirrors" by Justin Timberlake, and the song is basically about his other half ( A Girl ). This song Reminds me of you baby, even the first time i heard it, I LOVE YOU so much jas, Your my "Mirror".

Lyrics:
Aren't you somethin' to admire
Cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice
You reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and
The glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always
Parallel on the other side

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'm here tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making
Two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Aren't you somethin', an original
Cause it doesn't seem really as simple
And I can't help but stare, cause
I see truth somewhere in your eyes
I can't ever change without you
You reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I
Would look at us all the time

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'm here tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making
Two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Yesterday is history
Tomorrow's a mystery
I can see you lookin' back at me
Keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me

I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making
Two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

You are, you are the love of my life [x10]

Baby, you're the inspiration for this precious song
And I just wanna see your face light up since you put me on
So now I say goodbye to the old me, it's already gone
And I can't wait wait wait wait wait to get you home
Just to let you know, you are

You are, you are the love of my life [x8]

Girl you're my reflection, all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do
You're my reflection and all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do

Friday, 15 March 2013

March,15,2013

Why do i feel like even when i do things with other people, i still feel alone, why is it that when i talk, people hear me but don't listen.

I feel alone all the time and it sucks, i kinda just want someone to show interest in me and what i say and do, and have interest in me as a person.

Me and her are drifting again, but this time, i don't think i wanna hold on anymore, what's the point, im nothing.

Tuesday, 5 March 2013

March,5,2013

I can see the way this days gonna go..

Keep to myself i think so.

Saturday, 2 March 2013

The Chronicles..

Right now, I dont even know what to say, or think, or feel really..

I guess slowly falling apart is the way to go?

Oh wait, I've been doing that for months, Silly me.

Now This Whole "Situation".., i guess its life, i mean we both know the conciquences right? We both Agreed? We Both Know Its Never Ever 100%...

Its not that i dont trust anyone, or i dont want people to know.. Its just the whole, what will people think of me, Im the one who did it?

I cant handle emotionally or mentally the fact that i potentialy ruined her life....

The worse part, is she doesnt wanna do it "alone"... Like? Im your Boyfriend.. But That really fucking hurt

Basically, if were not, then im going, because im not doing this anymore

Ive reached my limit....

DONE